Sunday Morning Rant

Life is like a roller coaster with really bright moments where all is well and I’m on top of the world. And just like that things can spiral out of control and you feel like there is no way out. What has changed? How I react. How I take care of How I listen to my inside voices as I know what I should do. What can I control? What can I take charge of when I feel I have no control? My health. My nutrition. My exercise. Loving on my kids. Learning new things.

The older I get I realize that things are constantly changing and just when you think you’ve got a handle on things, life throws you a challenge to see how you handle it. Like “let’s see if she REALLY learned the lesson she was supposed to”. Ha. Funny, not so funny. Right now is one of those challenging times and I’m working on how to take each moment, day, situation as it is. Do I have a temper tantrum, of course, with a full blown cry, pity party and woe is me attitude. I give myself a moment to wallow, talk it out, write it out and dwell. But, I dust off my knees and tackle the issues full speed ahead. I can only control what I can control.

I’d love to say that all people only do good things for all…but I realize that we all have things swirling around on the inside that makes you do what you do. Some of those have positive outcomes and some negative. Some are meant to make people feel good and some may aim to hurt. I do not know why people can intentionally lie, hide or mistreat another but there again, I am not them. I can get mad, sad, angry and then let that sh*& go. If I sit on it too long, that toxicity will cause bigger issues and make me a negative and bitter person. I can control what I do from the inside out and if I do hurt someone, recognize my part and apologize and make my heart feel better.

Here’s to controlling me, my actions, my fitness, my health and my attitude. Here’s to consuming foods that make me feel best, walking outside and taking in the fall air and the most important of them all —hugging my girls until they squirm.